Come What May


I’m in the conservatory. The sky’s gone the colour of ash and there’s washing on the line, so I’ve got to be prepared to dash out and collect it at a moment’s notice. If you have a conservatory you’ll know just what excellent weather indicators they are: they amplify the faint patters of raindrops long before the storm starts. We had glorious sunshine just a week ago, but now I’m waiting anxiously for the imminent downpour. If anything sums up May for me, it’s the weather.

Last week, I began this post, and here’s what I wrote:

“It’s twenty seven degrees today, which is excellent. I’ve got an orange penguin bar (fancy) and all feels okay. It’s been ages since I’ve felt this chilled out and it feels nice to put all the horrendous parts of my MA degree behind me.”

The dreaded newsweeks were over, all essays were handed in, and I had just finished my final exam. I’d had an email confirming that I could genuinely do absolutely anything I wanted for my specialist features assignment- and yes, that included a recipe feature- and I thought I’d manage it. The troubles of my masters course would amount to something.

But all good things must come to an end. And so we have the placement search, and the very real possibility that I might fail my degree because I can’t find a work placement. #placementcryforhelp. If anyone does have any advice on how not to fail my course, please send it my way because I can’t hack it.

Maybe it’s the weather that’s got me feeling down, but I doubt it. 2016 is just shaping up to be a really, really terrible year. It’s one thing after another. And my blog has taken a back seat, which I’m quite upset about. I’ve not been feeling it with my internet bubble at the moment, because it feels exactly that- a bubble. Although, that said, I’ve thought the posts I’ve published have been quite good this month. I was pleased with my post on the magic baking tin, and the tin was so much fun to use. The coconut and summer fruit scones were perfect for the weather, and I finally completed a personal quest of recreating Millie’s Cookies with my cherry bakewell cookies. Those cookies were so amazing. Seriously. I’m about to make more. Again. I’ve also been working on improving posts and now I’ve got a proper recipe plugin, which (hopefully) makes the recipes easier to follow- and you can’t print them off I believe, if you should so desire.

For recipes, that was it. I can’t decide if I’m annoyed, because I got so few up, or if I’m secretly pleased, because I thought all three turned out really well?

I’ve also been spending a lot of time (read: wasting a lot of time) on Instagram lately and I’m loving it. Is there a like limit? I’m about to hit it one of these days. (Although what’s up with the ‘follow until you follow back then unfollow you’ instagrammers? Or is it just me with this petty problem?) If you fancy cheering me up, take a look.

That’s all I’ve got for my May recap. I’m still in the conservatory waiting for the first few drops of rain, but the downpour hasn’t arrived. If I were feeling poetic, I’d say the sun was even starting to break through the black clouds. The day is beginning to brighten up.

A cloudburst doesn’t last all day: all things must pass. Perhaps June will brighten up, as well.

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